Guilt

I hate the feeling of being weak. I hate showing my feelings and letting others know that I can be such an emotional person.

I just hate to hear people aruging because of me. Though it's not my fault, still the whole issue started because of me. I just feel gulity for someone to stand up for me when he really dont need to. It totally not related to him so there's really no need for him to speak up for me.

If no one wants to do it, then I can do it. There's no point trying to pin point on who should do the job. I rather have peace and harmony than people feeling uncomfortable when seeing each other. Maybe like what others say; I'm still a little kid which haven seen the real working world. But I rather believe that all problems can be solved by talking nicely and clearing things up. All of us are born kind and understanding. It's just that people interpert things differently so we need to talk in their kind of language to make them understand.

The last time I felt so upset was about half year earlier. I cried for one whole week.

Maybe I take things too hardly sometimes.
Maybe I'm just not suitable for what I'm doing now.
Maybe I should not have rejected the bank job which I was once very interested in.

I just hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

Will tomorrow be a better day??